When I sit and think of my life long dreams I always have a hesitation of ever believing any of them will come true. It like that song, "I Dreamed a Dream" sang by Susan Boyle (the link is below). I always wondered what it would actually feel like to have a dream come true.
My first dream came true with the birth of my son, Robert. I always wanted a little boy. They are so much more fun than girls (no offense intended). Boys dont mind getting dirty, they dont scream all the time, if they fall they get back up and try again more so than little girls.. I just think they are more fun--thats my opinion. I had my son when I was 24. Years before that I prayed to God to have a son before I turned 25. My son was born in February, 1991 and I turned 25 a few months later. When I asked God for a son I told him that it really didnt matter to me if the Dad stuck around or not. I just wanted a son. I divorced his Dad in '94 for reasons not worth mentioning because that's not important. What's important is my boy. We had lots of fun as he grew up. He and I learned a lot together about "growing up". He is 19 now, graduated from high school last year, and I have been told that he is a fine young man (even if he dresses funny). What I mean by that is he likes to wear a lot of black--no he isnt the gothic type--he has funky hair styles. We pick on each other all the time; I call him a "freak" and he calls me "Old Lady" and we laugh. We have such a good relationship that we know we are NOT saying those words to hurt each other, but you should see the reaction of other people when we talk like that in public, OMG LMAO. It's hilarious. I hope and pray that one day all of his dreams will come true just like mine did. Mine took a while and he has been with me the whole way so he knows that there might be struggles, there might be anger and sadness, but in the end "Things will get better" as my Mom always said.
The second one came true when I met my husband Neil back in 2004. I fell in love with him on our first date. Our date consisted of: my sister, her husband Scott who is also Neil's best friend, Neil and I--we all went out to a local bar to hang out and get to know one another. The guys played pinball while we watched. During this time we were all talking, laughing, joking, picking on each other--just having a blast. We left there after about 2 hours. Next, I rode with Neil in his truck to a local bowling alley that same night. Neil was such a gentleman--he opened the truck door for me when I got in and out, when we were walking he gently put his hand on my lower back, he talked to me like an equal and he treated me with such respect that I wasn't sure if he was for real or not. While we were bowling we laughed and talked some more. I didnt know until half way through the first game that Neil was extremely good at bowling. (he said he was just "ok"). After two games we all decided to call it a night. Neil gave me a ride to my apartment and I invited him in for coffee. We sat in my kitchen for 5 hours and talked of our lives, shared a couple secrets and of course laughed some more. Just before he was going to leave he went to use my restroom and when he came back into the kitchen he surprised the heck out of me. I was standing by the kitchen counter when he came around the corner. I looked up at him and he had this look in his eyes and determination in his walk that told me he was on a mission. He walked right up to me, slowly put my face in his hands and gave me the most passionate kiss I have ever had in my entire life. I melted right there. Everytime I think about it I can see him doing this. Shortly after that I said it was time for him to go and he asked if he could spend the night and I told him I wasnt ready for that. I was surprised when he didnt push the issue or argue or anything. He said ok and asked me to walk him out which I did. I fell in love with Neil that night. He is the only man that I have ever known that has treated me with respect, never judged me for my past or how I think and act (I've been told that I am opinionated and too honest), he treats me like a lady and he loves me unconditionally. I proposed to him on our 6 month anniversary and you can guess his answer because he is now my husband.
My third dream will be coming true on May 14, 2010--I WILL BE GRADUATING COLLEGE with honors (GPA 3.91 as of January 2010). I will write more on this later. I have school work to do. While your waiting check out the link below. You may have to copy and paste it in your browser.
Take care and have a glorious day.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=RxPZh4AnWyK I dreamed a dream by Susan Boyle--AWESOME!!!!
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